Why I Had to Leave China

Image of a small American flag. In the background is the ocean.

So, I had to leave China.

I’m back in the United States, and for good now.

This is much earlier than I’d originally planned–the plan had been to stay for a year then reevaluate whether I wanted to stay on for another year–, but I had to come back for health reasons that just couldn’t wait any longer.

Simply put, I became very, very ill over in China, and due to my rapidly degrading condition, my doctors all recommended that I come back to the States for treatment ASAP. It was a slow decline that gradually snowballed out of control. First it was difficult for me to eat certain foods, then I would need to rest more than other people or take the odd painkiller here and there, until suddenly I couldn’t eat at all, I couldn’t walk around for more than five minutes at a time, and was in such pain I couldn’t sleep for stretches of days. The only way I was able to endure teaching during those last few days was by using my breaks to cry in a secluded corner and/or discreetly find a place to vomit.

I resisted and persisted until my body quite literally couldn’t function any more. My work wanted me to tough it out, and I felt intense loyalty to my students and coworkers. My doctors however informed me that, if I didn’t leave now, things could get worse, to where my life may be in real jeopardy. At the time they even felt one of my organs might need to come out, (which it still might; they’re keeping an eye on it if/until things worsen again), which, frankly, scared me straight. On top of my pre-existing health issues, there was a very real possibility that I was putting myself in harm’s way.

So, I caved. I gave in. I kissed my dreams of travel and completing my contract and collecting that sweet, sweet end-of-contract bonus goodbye, and left China. And I’m glad I did.

Yes, I only lived in China for about 6 months, half of what I originally intended. But I’m alive, and I’m recovering, and I’m beginning to find normalcy in my life once again.

Some people have asked me if I’ll return to finish my contract in China, but I won’t be. I simply can’t go back for so long again without putting my health at serious risk. The combination of environmental factors have too great an effect on my health, and to do so would be risky at best. That, plus I was largely treated like absolute garbage by at least 80% of the people I encountered there, from stalking to slurs  (“foreign devil” was my favorite) to people literally trying to steal pieces of my hair and/or grope me.

So I think it’s easy to understand why I’m not abundantly eager to return anytime soon.

I’m still upset that I was unable to leave on my own terms and my own timetable. But, all considered, I’m lucky I had a safety net I could fall into, and lucky I left in time. This entire ordeal has made me reconsider my goals in life, but right now my top priority is getting better. And I’ve been recovering slowly but surely.

I’ll keep everyone updated, but please be patient with me as I begin getting back into the swing of things. I’m happy to be back at it!

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Nanhu Park

The first time I went to Nanhu park, I was astonished.

The parks I’d been accustomed to back home were nowhere near as scenic nor bustling with activity. They were more like patches of grass and a couple of trees, maybe a bench or basketball hoop at most. But at 2.2 square kilometers, Nanhu park is huge–and gorgeous. There you can see a beautiful lake, trees, gardens, etc. It truly has so much to offer! 

A chair-sled…thing. I asked at least 6 native Mandarin speakers what these were called, but no one could give me an answer!

In the summer it’s verdant and lush, but wintertime (when I shot this video) is beautiful as well. And there’s plenty to do. Ice-fishing, skating, sledding, people on these chair-skating-contraptions (I’m really not sure what else to call them) and hockey, are just part of what Nanhu has to offer. Depending on the time of year, you can see an abundance of ice and snow sculptures too.

Though winters can be difficult here, being so cold and with little sunlight, there’s a certain beauty to it that I’ve really found myself appreciating. I can’t wait to see this place thaw into the green of spring, and I can’t wait to share more of China with you. 

What is your favorite park you’ve ever been to? Why? Leave a comment below!
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I’m Moving to China!

As you can tell from the title, I am moving across the globe to China! To the north-eastern city of Changchun, in fact. In this video I cover 4 main things about my upcoming journey: where I’ll be living, how long I’ll be there, what I’ll be doing, and why I’ve decided to go.

Where I Will be Living

I will be living in the medium sized city of Changchun, home to the head of the former Manchukuo puppet state, home of the last emperor, one of China’s famed garden cities, and so forth. Some of the things I’m most excited to see while I’m there are the natural hot springs and the yearly Ice Festival! (Check out the pictures below!)

One of Jilin’s popular hot springs.
The yearly Harbin Ice Festival.

How Long I’ll be There

My contract is for a full 12 months. I should be leaving for China in about mid-September, and thus will return one year from then.

What I’ll be Doing

I will be teaching English! I have such a passion for language and learning, so put those two together and, well, you can see why I’m so excited to go. 😉

Why I’m Going

This one is a longer answer, but I’ll boil it down to this: I love to travel, I want to improve my Chinese by actually immersing myself in the language and culture, this job will help me to get experience and funds for graduate school, and I simply want to. Ever since I was 11 years old, I’ve wanted to pack up and move overseas, and appreciate the culture and history of wherever I wound up. I see so many older folks say “I wish I’d done X, Y, or Z when I was younger”, and yet they never did. I refuse to let that be me.

Yes, it’s kind of scary moving overseas. Especially to a country half way around the world, where you only kinda-sorta understand the language and customs.  But if you never jump, you’ll never know what waits on the other side.

So, I’m jumping.

 

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